Do I Need It?

I got this conflict on my soul like "do I need it?"

The bridge that broke on me before ain't breaking even

And now these texts all on my phone like "why'd you leave us?"

I had to help myself do better for a reason

I left that deal up on the table got me thinking

Would I regret it is it something that I'm needing

I did this shit all on my own and still ain't sink yet

But still this shit be moving fast and I ain't blink yet

Hopped inside the whip and I be swerving like I'm drinking

But really I ain't focused I been stuck on overthinking

Some days man I feel like I be living for no reason

It feels like I'm floating in my mind I'm barely breathing

But imma keep on holding on

Like nothings going on

I know a lot relying on me just to roll along

I miss the days I had before I went and wrote this song

But I done way too much to fuck around and fold it all

Back then I would do this in my down time

But now it's therapy could never live without, I

Feel like I'm stranded and stuck up in a hole

On the road always question if I really chose the route right

Man imma stay the course, ride the waves and take the fall

And if it all goes south then I'm north above it all

Cuz I've been tested, broken, i still stand strong

And I know that shit regardless imma make it real far

But this weight upon shoulders feel like 7 plates large

And they pulling at my ankles saying please hold on

Had to leave the situation just to breathe cause my heart

Couldn't take no more

Feeling like I'd fall apart

And it's hard to see the faces of my father and my mom

When I'm lying to them everytime they asking what's wrong

I'on like to be the reason that they think real hard

Cause they got it hard enough so I could never add more

Look into the mirror 'fore I leave for a long day

Recognize the fact it's getting hard for me to part ways

Life ain't nothing sweet

I just wanna keep the peace

Take my family to a show the day I'm playing in the Barclays

Making choices on the regular, some be harder than others

Stepping out of situations that show me I'm still above it

When I think I ain't progressing I look back and discover

All the bullshit that i had to take is something i been growing from

I got this conflict on my soul like "do I need it?"

The bridge that broke on me before ain't breaking even

And now these texts all on my phone like "why'd you leave us?"

I had to help myself do better for a reason

I left that deal up on the table got me thinking

Would I regret it is it something that I'm needing

I did this shit all on my own and still ain't sink yet

But still this shit be moving fast and I ain't blink yet

Hopped inside the whip and I be swerving like I'm drinking

But really I ain't focused I been stuck on overthinking

Some days man I feel like I be living for no reason

It feels like I'm floating in my mind I'm barely breathing

But imma keep on holding on

Like nothings going on

I know a lot relying on me just to roll along

I miss the days I had before I went and wrote this song

But I done way too much to fuck around and fold it all

Back then I would do this in my down time

But now it's therapy could never live without, I

Feel like I'm stranded and stuck up in a hole

On the road always question if I really chose the route right

Man imma stay the course, ride the waves and take the fall

And if it all goes south then I'm north above it all

Cuz I've been tested, broken, i still stand strong

And I know that shit regardless imma make it real far