My younger self loved getting drunk but he misunderstood it

He made his liver handle anything his heart just couldn't

I started looking for myself, my compass constantly would spin

A smart man looks around, a wise man looks within, yeah

I'm digging deeper, I'm tryna just stop suppressing shit

You give somebody money once, they might just start expecting it

Then resentment builds after that first time you refuse

But givers need to set boundaries 'cause takers never do

I swear I'm trying

I think that's all I can do

There's no denying

That old habits keep slipping through

And I know that I won't

Ever have it all figured out, oh, no

That's not gon' stop me

From trying, trying, trying

Navigating internal chaos, don't get a day off

Sometimes I feel dead inside, self talks feel like a seance

Praying for the strength to investigate, not ignore

I gotta stop banging on walls hoping they turn into a door

I'm feelin' torn though, my comfort zone is now a war zone

Ashamed at my own sadness, I feel betrayed by my own hormones

I'm chasing congruency, I'm craving community

Told my girl, "I love you, but my life can't just be you and me"

I swear I'm trying

I think that's all I can do

There's no denying

That old habits keep slipping through

And I know that I won't

Ever have it all figured out, oh, no

That's not gon' stop me

From trying, trying, trying

I gotta problem with enabling my family, it's disabling

Scared to face my demons but when I do, it makes my angels sing

Stressed 'cause it's the season of celebrating and grieving

The grays poppin' out like Liam Neeson

How long will they be open to receiving my message

I'm thirty-two now

If you were in the genre that I'm in, you'd worry too now

My family all relies on me

I gotta fear of being seen, but for their sake, please keep your eyes on me

I swear I'm trying

I think that's all I can do

There's no denying

That old habits keep slipping through

And I know that I won't

Ever have it all figured out, oh, no

That's not gon' stop me

From trying, trying, trying