All I feel is gray

Deep inside my soul

Don’t like what it takes

Just want what I’m owed

Every day’s the same

It’s a lil different now

Don’t know what to say

Don’t know what to say

All I feel is gray

Deep inside my soul

Don’t like what it takes

Just want what I’m owed

Every day’s the same

It’s a lil different now

Don’t know what to say

Don’t know what to say

See I’m tired of up and down just pick a lane

Tired of feeling hope inside the pain

Tired of wanting love and choosing solitude

And I’m tired of the mind games

Tired of living life without the color I wanted cause everything forever changing

Tired of being tired on the regular only thing coming round every day

I’m always putting other people first

Tired of feeling guilty when I don’t

I’m always reminiscing bout the worst

Tired of thinking lemme let it go

Tired of blessings being on the way

I pray that eventually a brother straight

But man can you blame for wanting some change today

All I been seeing is shades of gray

Deep inside my soul

Don’t like what it takes

Just want what I’m owed

Every day’s the same

It’s a lil different now

Don’t know what to say

Don’t know what to say

All I feel is gray

Deep inside my soul

Don’t like what it takes

Just want what I’m owed

Every day’s the same

It’s a lil different now

Don’t know what to say

Don’t know what to say

GRAY!

GRAY!

I’ve held this hate inside my heart since I was fifteen

When things had got so inconsistent that I couldn’t dream

My reality is I been feeling everything

Everywhere, All at once recorded like a movie scene

No control, manifesting, never destined, what it seems

People sing my praises so I pray that I can go and be

The person they expect of me it’s turned into my only dream

 Cause if I’m half as good as him I just might be ok with me

A sticky situation, heavenly mutation

Self inflicted wounds so I don’t want collaboration

I don’t want your sympathy your hopeful validation

Lonely at the end of days so what’s the point in conversation

But what I need

Is someone to clean me up when I bleed

Is someone to hear my voice when I speak

I been running out of options I don’t even wanna think about what’s next for me

gray