If you were still here i hope i would not disappoint you

It's just i forgot to call my father again, i pretend you're in everyone i meet

I'm so scared of repeating

How selfish am i to tell everyone that i miss you

Thinking that my grief is more important than theirs, i'm just scared that your in everyone i meet

I'm so scared of repeating

School playgrounds and graveyards were the last place that i saw you

Said it before, said i'd never said a good goodbye (said a good goodbye)

Like i find it hard to not remember every moment, said it before

How selfish, how selfish am i

If you were still here i hope you would not disappoint me

Would you be selfish? would you ever call? would we talk about all of our secrets?

What have you been reading?

Would i be the same? would you? would February loom the way that it does?

Would i ever know how to say goodbye? (say a good goodbye)

Would i think about how people will see me when it's finally my turn to die?

How selfish, how selfish am i

How selfish, how selfish am i