Can I not make you proud?

Is being alive just enough to let you down?

You can hold me as close as you want, but I'll drown

I think you already know that

It seems you already knew

How can you want me so bad?

And then pretend you never knew me, oh

A tall order, such a tall task

But one you did so easily

Take all I know away from me

And all that I love, just leave to me to decay

Till I'm skin and I'm bone and I'm wafer-thin

Maybe you'd like me better that way

I'll cut my hair and you won't recognise me

Honestly, I don't know what you want

I'll grit my teeth and I'll come out of hiding

I'm in the forest, don't tell anyone

How could you love me? I knew some day you'd do this

And thinking 'bout it, I probably persued it

Fuck this, I'ma get so angry now, angry now

Say some shit I should have talked about, talked about

How did you get angry when it's me you were abusing?

Ask me where I'm going, every minute you were choosing

Angry with me every second, how did I not lose it?

Guess I kinda did, how I reacted like a human

Pull me from these strings, I'm not a puppet for your using

No one noticed

No one noticed

No one noticed

No one noticed, thought I controlled it

But every time I go to talk, I hide my feelings

I keep my mouth shut in fear of argument

I read somewhere that's it's unhealthy, but I live like this

And it won't change, and God knows that I've tried

So if I ruin everything, I'm sorry, my circuit's been fried

I'm walking on thin ice, sloped on an incline

My flow's changed like nine times, I'm sorry I'm ranting

After all, I amount to nothing

Nothing's original

Everything's been said before

Every feeling felt before

Every thought been thought before

Everything been seen before

But I thought I could do it with you

Oh, how shameful

And I could feel them with you

Oh, how painful

That I confuse it with you