Know that I could die trying

It's fucking up my mind

Way she draining me of life, it's getting harder to survive

And I don't wanna take pills, but I ain't fine

And I don't wanna write wills, cuz it's not time

I don't wanna feel nothin'

I'm tired of being like this

Sick of lyin' to myself, know I ain't being honest

Oh, I take drugs for the pain, just to be like this

Im smokin' blunts to the face, just to feel like this

Want me to slow it down?

But I ain't gettin' off it

One day I'm feelin' good

Next day i'm feelin' awful

Awake at 3 AM, havin' severe withdrawals

I think I need a drink, room full of empty bottles

Know that I could die trying

It's fucking up my mind

Way she draining me of life, it's getting harder to survive

And I don't wanna take pills, but I ain't fine

No, I don't wanna write wills, cuz it's not time

And I don't wanna die young, but I ain't right

Know its all because of you I'm contemplating suicide

No, I don't wanna chase thrills, knowing I'll die

No, I don't wanna take this just to feel high

I wanna give in, been sippin'

God damn, I've made some bad decisions

I'm overthinking

They said be careful, I didn't listen

Too addicted

No, I ain't stoppin' til' I'm finished

You bring me down, but there's a point there where I like the feeling

I can't run from my problems

Oh and you try to help, but you know you can't solve em

Cuz in my state of mind I don't know if I want this

It's an eye for an eye, I think I know what the cost is

They say I could die trying

But i'm so high, it's got me sittin' there smilin'

But I know this ain't right and

I know I'm gon' die trying

Know that I could die trying

It's fucking up my mind

Way she draining me of life, it's getting harder to survive

And I don't wanna take pills, but I ain't fine

No, I don't wanna write wills, cuz it's not time

And I don't wanna die young, but I ain't right

Know its all because of you I'm contemplating suicide

No, I don't wanna chase thrills, knowing I'll die

No, I don't wanna take this just to feel high