I find myself overthinking to extremes

I question everything till insecurities reign supreme

I find no peace without some stress release

So I do a fivek four-three times per week with Dre beats

I wanna know why some act like they do

Choices they choose lack sense like perfect change does too

Staring at my kids adoring what I helped create

Then my mind drifts off and I start to wonder when the transition takes place

Everyone on earth, born innocent at birth

Nature makes some worse to their evil just like a curse

What keeps one from falling off the edge?

Listening to every dark thought in the head

Going against the grain instead

And wishing everybody on this planet dead

Every question I have and thought that I form

Feels the black cloud leaving me stuck in the eye of the storm

My thoughts are abnorm

When curiosity swarms

I'm trying to reform until a new me is born

My devotion is my best emotion

My critical thoughts run deeper than all the oceans

Good times fade fast, tragedy leaves slow

Looking for answers to questions I'm not sure I should know

Discontent, satisfied, happy and depressed all at one time

Well balanced exterior but I'm shaky inside

So smart but so dumb, old to some while still young

Uncertain as they come yet ain't stressing bout none

Some act certain ways that leave me amazed

Used to react with rage now I pity the dazed

Refuse to help yourself and want help from someone else

Self pity equals poor mental health

Pride is the devil only next to wealth

I tame the beast so my family don't see me deceased

Or in D.O.C living inside concrete

Sitting in a cot, Alone with my thoughts

Plus a notepad to jot

Is a spot I don't want to stop and dock

My boat So I just say nope

Convinced hope is the antidote To loosen these ropes

The older I get, the more I have learned

How to set things on fire without being burned

I've taken some turns, at times been real low

New outlook in life, we'll see where this bitch goes

I transformed my brain

Through heartache and pain

But escape more sane with new heights in my aim, can't complain

My devotion is my best emotion

My critical thoughts run deeper than all the oceans

Good times fade fast, tragedy leaves slow

Looking for answers to questions I'm not sure I should know

Discontent, satisfied, happy and depressed all at one time

Well balanced exterior but I'm shaky inside

So smart but so dumb, old to some while still young

Uncertain as they come yet ain't stressing bout none