I been tryna pick up the pieces, see how they fittin' in

Maybe they weren't meant to be sequenced, they just too different

Think I was too young as a teen when I lost my innocence

Heard 'em like to say I'm facetious, I was just kidding then

Now everyone so serious, they pout, brows furrowed

Maybe they should work shit out, write it down in a journal

Ever since my ex bounced, I'm not about getting a rebound

I'm trying something new, like learning how to love me now

Building a curriculum and sticking to the lesson plan

It was more than often, constantly feeling lesser than

Said I'm adamant to be a better man, but then again

I'm still insensitive to my friends, I never let 'em in

Preaching like prescriptions but don't take my own medicine

Then I get surprised I'm still sick, get a second wind

Eventually, my hesitancy just must be the death of me

But it's all on me now, I can't blame codependency no mo

Making schedules outside of taking edibles, oh no

Lining up my shot from the hip, no reticle to blow

Flock together with birds of the same feather, that's Ho-Oh

Legendary since the cemetery, deadly when I'm low

Look, it's one day at a time

I know it's gold inside my brain, but I don't pay 'em no mind

Set on making the climb, whether it's rain or the shine

And I can tell you ain't about it, just wait on the side

Was at an all-time low, feeling weightless

Damned if I do, damned if I don't, ha, I'm still faded

That's ill-fated, long since I've been elated

Called it quits, didn't think this mic will make it

How could I do that to my only outlet?

Would shout from the mountains, didn't know about shit

Was going off rails, no one hold me down

So I was blowing up, but not unknown to found

Was real self-destruction, I fuckin' lost myself

The album after this 'bout wanting to off myself

Thinking like a tick, was sicker than Gargamel

Then Grandma Carmen passed, watched as the coffin fell

The way she left this earth with heavy worries 'bout me

Hangs over my head, had to turn it around clean

Low self-esteem, no nerve to be proud in me

Down for the count, couldn't even drown in alchemy

Remember when I used to have purpose, incompetence lurking

You'd catch me at work till the A.M.

Painted the picture, I picked out the colors

That was way back when, now it's fading

Gave it all up, we move back to the basics

Carrying sticks like they cavemen

Head above water, are you pulling my leg?

I drown in the sound of my wavelength