How can I move on if my heart hurt

I complain about my prayers knowing that I be skipping church

I can't elevate saying that I dont need new friends

I wanna be great but shyt i don't put that time in

How can we be friends with hella benefits

expecting you to love me but I don't think that is love exist

You moved on like we ain't built trust

Guess I was just a moment that never really meant much

Was out of touch cause I don't feel pain

Im out of shape but got the nerves to wanna run game

I asked if you loved me you said "and do"

Every I love you now kinda feel like a spoof

Ohhhhh I was trippin

How we gon get closer we've been hella distant

Said I was narssist and be don't be listening

Well I heard you but you must have been whispering

Dark clouds dark smiles is normal now

Went from moving in together now she requesting to move around.

I mask pain wit a half smile

She told me to beat my feet I done walked like 1,000miles

Had love, now I fear that touch

I learned that when you give too much, you won't receive much

Now I'm cold to the world I don't feel the rush

Tryna numb wat I feel ..now I'm kinda feeling outta touch

You was my peace when the world was loud

Said I was sending her through hoops and what goes around comes around.

Don't believe in karma but wont argue it

told me ta speak my mind but it always turns into some arguments

Been trying hard not to lose sight

But it's hard when the dark feel more like right

And what's left I don't know now

These is thoughts from me sitting in the dark staring at dark clouds