I begged for a look, for a sign, for proof But mirrors were all you ever knew

 I tried to build a bridge where you burned the land

 I tried to understand what you never can You say I'm competing, say I wanna be you

 But that's a lie you tell to make it true

 I don't wanna be around you now You taught yourself how to be alone somehow

 I'm growing slow, yeah, I'm healing through Using all this pain just to not be you

 You say we're the same, but that's not true I face my faults, I'm not like you

 You're over fifty, throwing fits like a kid Blaming the world for the things you did

 You break and deny, then call it strength But I learned to say I was wrong and change

 I wanted a mother, not a war, not scars I still explain to lovers I adore

 I tried every way to keep us alive But you can't save someone who won't survive

 You see reflection, I see the past You're stuck in moments already past

 You think I'm judging, think I compare But I'm just choosing not to live there

 I don't wanna be around you now You taught yourself how to be alone somehow

 I'm growing slow, yeah, I'm healing through Using all this pain just to not be you

 You say we're the same, but that's not true I face my faults, I'm not like you

 You never saw me when I needed you most I was screaming love, you heard a ghost

 I won't carry hate, I won't carry blame But I won't carry you just to feel your pain

 So stay where you are with your crown and your lies I'll build a life where my future survives

 I forgive myself for wanting you But I swear to God I'll never be you