today I realized I still care

today I realized I’m not as over you as I thought I once once was

my caring is a curse, I swear to try to be more tuff

I have a fear because everyone woman I love leaves

& that fear is now love

I tried but this recent overdose was enough

I’m cool of you, you never even even gave me much

no accountability, no apology, no trust

no touch, no hug hug , just delusion & & ig mixed w a big crush

you watch me drunk n decided not to check on me that night

you saw me down & I had cut myself w a knife

& still didn’t care yet im the bad guy

dk why it falls apart, kinda the story of my life

I thought we was better then this why couldn’t we get it right

now i cant love you cause unlike your life you don’t gaf about mine

don’t really get the point where we just wasted time

why couldn’t you lock-in

before it got to all these fights

Signed my self up for a crazy as guy

dk if I meant sum or if you do this to ever guy

today I realized I still care

today I realized I’m not as over you as I thought I once was

my caring is a curse, I swear to try to be more tuff

I have a fear because everyone woman I love leaves

& that fear is now love

I tried it but this recent overdose was enough

I’m cool of you, you never even gave me much

no accountability no apology, no trust

no touch, no hug, just delusion & ig mixed w a big crush

I wrote you a couple songs,

I even dropped off roses for you just to still do me wrong

tried to pu to your place, you prob didn’t care if I was lost

I bought you roses & a gift, u didn’t even care at all

for giving out love, now I see it’s my fault

I see where I went wrong, delusion had me in the fog

on the 23rd of December, you then turned my heart frost

how you believe in god, but not doing right by the cross

my last message was congrats, but it’s really your loss

today I realized I still care

today I realized I’m not as over you as I thought I once was

my caring is a curse, I swear to try to be more tuff

I have a fear because everyone woman I love leaves

& that fear is now love

I tried but this recent overdose was enough

I’m cool of you, you never even gave me much

no accountability, no apology, no trust

no touch, no hug, just delusion & ig mixed w a big crush