I know myself I'm a menace who lacks in management

Who's parents split a kid who's steady minded

But jealous, raging, and tempers are the normal manners

And all these feelings feelin' meaningless I'm feeling like I'm Dr.Banner

Cause this anger's got me fueled but my mother likes to blame it on me

So I just grew up believing that daddy leaving and the times that

Mother beating on me with broken hangers was fueled by my anger

Too young to understand it just hate it but still complicit

All this moving we was doing had me screwing

Cause I knew that this was proving that we're ruined as a family

When we lived in trailers couldn't get no food but she could some cigarettes

I was starving but I was never hungry I was starving for a family that loved me

Didn't hate me didn't hit me didn't kick me didn't curse at me

I'm left alone and I feel guilty wanting more

But I just need to get away start feeling safe

It's time to say

I started thinking lately that I wanna change

And I don't wanna be no different but can't stay the same

And I keep hurting people just so I can make a name

I need to make my music real instead of faking fame

I just need yank my head and mind from outer space

And try to ground myself so I don't make no dumb mistakes

I just hope I have more time before I lose the race

I've gotta tell myself that all this change will be okay

And all this change is so scary

I feel my brain going crazy

I feel insane when I'm better

But better when It's bad weather

I long too much for the past this present shit I'm not with it

I miss it feeling so gifted I grew up then I got gifted

The gift of looped intermissions of working shift after shift

I just wake up, go to work, come home to get some sleep so I can get up and work

So still I feel I'm not with it I feel like / like I can blast off to outer space

And vanish off the face of this planet without a trace without a care

Oh, I don't if it's true, but I start feeling so used like is it my fault or yours

That you can't pay up the bills, like I just paid your bills

But you just come at me like I'm the issue

Like it's a mystery on who the problem really is

Like it's all my fault but fuck it I don't care no more

It's time to refresh and try to better myself

I started thinking lately that I wanna change

And I don't wanna be no different but can't stay the same

And I keep hurting people just so I can make a name

I need to make my music real instead of faking fame

I just need yank my head and mind from outer space

And try to ground myself so I don't make no dumb mistakes

I just hope I have more time before I lose the race

I've gotta tell myself that all this change will be okay