I'm holding on the ledge

I'm giving what it takes

Wouldn't make it through high school if I didn't have this page

I was throwing them tangents

Having no answers

I was just scared as fuck

I'm so glad we made it out

It all changed right then

All those nights staying up praying but it didn't work for me

What worked for me was actually finding something to be proud of

Something I mattered, finding something I DEI for

There's nothing I'd die for except this music shit

I don't give a shit

When I die all y'all forget

So I don't care about my name or the fame

You don't know it until you've had it and lost it, regained it again

Now I think back like damn I stress over a number though goddamn

Got enough trades for a man

I could retire

But y'all ain't gotta like me so likely ain't no reason in trying

Right in our home this son is grown and thriving

Still the same old loud mouth could never be silent

I'm always looking for flaws

Think the next shit when I date ya

Blind sight got the vision of Reina

Let me show you later

This is jazz mixed with rap and a heart attack

Dopest to ever do it you just failed to calculate the math

All the corruption these people lie about nothing

If you wanna tell me something say some shit I don't hear often

And I'm back again

In the headphones with your weird friend

Finna pretend like what's happening and

Laughing when I really don't feel a thing

But I don't want pity

Don't wanna hear it

Don't want you feeling bad for me when

Actually nothing in my life is a tragedy look

Think I forgot about

Fans care about

It's like this song won't release a song

Like all this sad shit I've written out