This November

Fell this morning, fucked up this whole damn day In fact the sun is high and shining, but I'm too drained to leave I'll wait for night to sink, close the blinds and lock both the doors Oh god I'm terrified, I'm terrified to be found here, shaking and withdrawn I need a break, I keep scratching but won't cut deep enough to bleed I'll figure it out alone, Don't know what's gotten in to me But it'll be alright, it'll be alright, It's okay, god damn sometimes silence is all I need To be and feel complete It's okay, if you never hurt you never feel a thing And I don't say all I mean. Fuck tomorrow and fuck all of yesterday I'm too old to be chasing burdens by the riverside at night A watershed waste deep with friends turning cheeks As I'm chasing trains that never end I cut but I don't feel, don't know what's gotten... It's okay, god damn sometimes silence is all I need To be and feel complete It's okay, if you never hurt you never feel a thing And I don't say all I mean But I'm not scared, no I ain't angry I just need time, just need to escape We all try, tired and broken But it'll be alright