I thought I had it figured out but I didn't

I've been, poppin' and sippin', a problem and I admit it

I've been searchin' for peace, feel like it's missin'

I could leave but my heart is still stuck inside of the trenches

Some say I "made it," but why it feel like I didn't?

First Class don't feel right 'cause none of my friends in it

Is this somethin' that I love, or just a job? Can't tell the difference

Gotta learn to not let these emotions go over business

Toured across the world, they buried y'all and I missed it

Why I'm on a plane, brother on the bus to a sentence?

Why I got a Patek, but it's shackles where brother's wrist is?

Got a thousand dollar rug but my other bro gettin' evicted

You ever felt like you got no one to talk to, nobody get it?

Life don't feel right, I got dawgs who ain't livin'

Time just goin' by, my daughter just started kinder'

Half of me tryna grow, other half still stuck in it

And if I die before I wake

I pray the Lord, my soul to take

But please don't cry just know that I been real to you

I survived why I'm ashamed

I feel the guilt get in my way

But please don't cry just know that I make these songs for you

I got a guilty conscience

I got demons, shake 'em off me

It's my problem

It's exhausting to tell the truth

Get it how I live it

I'm goin' to business meetings with pistol in my denims

Dawg really my brudda, I treat him just like my sibling

Call my Mama the Chicken, because I'm knowin' that she be stressin'

Aye, million dollar mind state, can't crash about no pennies

At a five star resort, still make a call and get him finished

Oceanside views with breakfast that comes with it

When you from the trenches, this lifestyle feels guilty

I can't let 'em see my head down, that mean the trolls winnin'

Taught my daughter different, she prayin' before dinner

I'm still sinning, I'm funding for more spinnin'

Hopin' that they get him, I promise it's not endin'

And if I die before I wake

I pray the Lord, my soul to take

But please don't cry just know that I been real to you

I survived why I'm ashamed

I feel the guilt get in my way

But please don't cry just know that I make these songs for you

I got a guilty conscience

I got demons, shake 'em off me

It's my problem

It's exhausting to tell the truth