Spectacular Now

Yeah A quick trip to NOLA to catch up with some old friends Yeah, I copped the whip and then next Day, start thinkin' 'bout the next one Like I ain't satisfied, in my head, I start second guessin' Appreciate where you at, I still ain't learned the lesson Compare myself without realizin' that I'm the blessed one My good days and my bad days, they seem to keep on switchin' Most artists sound don't feel like me, but you don't pay attention Don't talk about alcoholism, don't talk about addiction Don't talk about mental health, don't talk about depression Spend hours scrollin' my socials, and I compare myself See all the things I don't like in me, I can't bear myself The voice in my head keeps talkin', wish I ain't hear myself And in the depths of my darkness, sometimes I scare myself Is it ever good enough? Is the work I put enough? Is it goin' pop? Is it too soft or is it hood enough? Nina Simone never could have been misunderstood enough It's all there, you just gotta look enough (You know?) Is it good enough? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? (Uh) Is it good enough? (Yeah) Somebody show me the remedy (Uh, uh) Is it good enough? I remember when you said to me 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? (Oh no) The questions we ask ourselves The things we don't talk about out loud (Yeah, uh) I fell out with all my exes, now they're cursing his name Chasin' ghosts and memories, I think I'm searchin' in vain I self-medicate sometimes, they said it works for the pain Sacrifice the personal life while tryna work for this fame I put my personal gain, before the people I love And now I'm here askin' myself while 20 deep in the club Who really loves me for me or who's just here for the clout? If I had to guess it's fifty fifty just to even it out I'm rambling, back on topic since they gave me the floor The point's appreciate the present, I just wait here for more And I been starting days with writing lists what I'm grateful for We're like some heroes to these kids, I drag my cape on the floor We lost Nipsey and I cried 100 tears in my room Let's celebrate our heroes now, Not just when they're gone too soon (Yeah) I'm thinking back on it now But don't get so caught up too much you Miss the spectacular now (Let's go, uh) Is it good enough? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? (Uh) Is it good enough? (Yeah) Somebody show me the remedy (Uh, uh) Is it good enough? I remember when you said to me 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? 'Cause if not now, when will it ever be? (Oh no)