Tired

Yeah, uh Lately I've been tryna cope I always do it alone I just suffer on my own Still going through highs and lows Feels like I've been here before Sometimes I just wanna post what I have been feelin' But I have the feelin' if somebody knows They'll use it against me, I'm used to the envy They're good at pretendin' they don't My thoughts are reflections of what I'm suppressin' Me tryna correct it is needed the most I'm counting my blessings through my perception I can't see the lesson that God's tryna show I recently check in a therapy session to ease the depression I'm tryna let go My life has distressed and I feel disconnected I keep second guessing the path that I chose It blows, to manifest everything that I ever wanted It feels so dismissing Why does my happiness come to a crash And then I'm the one whose caught in the collision? When I get emotional I sabotage myself By making these impulsive decisions I feel like everybody's out to get me The trauma I've been through's keeping defensive I don't know why I never open up There's a door to me that I'm closing shut I'm mentally numb, I just wanna run I love and hate the person I've become I love me for makin' it on my own But hate me 'cause I celebrate alone I'm a sore winner, I already know I don't wanna rap, I think I'ma fold I feel isolated no family or friends I honestly feel like I've reached a dead-end I've been tryna be optimistic but Loneliness is still a feeling that's wearing me thin Where is the old me, where have I been? I'm searching but I no longer exist I always lose me, I find me again But not now 'cause I don't know if I can, damn I'm just tired of feeling low, you know? I just don't know what it is, it's just like Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low I'm tired, damn Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low I'm tired, damn I'm tired of waking up feeling this way, oh I'm tired, I'm tired Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low Tired of feeling low (low) Tired of feeling low I'm tired, damn I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired I'm tired