This a Message

Yeah A lot of things on my mind, man Uuh So this a message to all of my fans Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man Because I'm trapped inside my mind Of who I am and who I choose to be Now I just abuse the weed To hide from what I truly see I looked inside my mirror Hoping God would help me see myself But only seen my demons screaming out That I should free myself I'm feeling lost feeling lonely on this twisted road I'll fake a smile so that my parents and my sister know That I'm alright, I'm okay, I been doing good So don't worry I'll be fine like you knew I would My mom will tell me that I'm great and that she's proud of me My dad will brag to all his friends that he can count on me The pressures here it's building up now its surrounding me I'm scared to let them down 'cuz if I do will they look down on me See that's a question that a broken soul would ask itself Like, why the fuck am I alive, man? I should blast myself I'm writing music to forget I can't distract myself From every fucking thought I think it's time I try to ask for help So this a message to all of my fans Yes I got some questions it's all in advance Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man, yeah So this a message to all of my fans Yes I got some questions it's all in advance Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man Shit this ain't normal, I don't know what I should fucking do I paid my dues but still ain't figure out my fucking truth I feel alone but I got every single one of you I think I take that shit for granted dog and I ain't wanting to But shit happens, in such a quick fashion The road twists so fast and then my whip crashes Except the whip is not my car its all my sick passions And the roads the world around me tryna get at them God, you a sick bastard For putting me through the ropes At 13 I seen my uncle with a tube in his throat I watched my cousins lose a father slowly losing their hope Then asked the preacher why and he said "Only you could've known" So tell me Why'd you do it Man, I need you to say To put my mind more at ease with all the shit you display I know I'm not supposed to question you, but damnit, I prayed And it seems like you don't care about a thing that I say So this a message to all of my fans Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man, yeah So this a message to all of my fans Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man So this a message to all of my fans Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man