Good to Me

I've waited on tables For men who change lives And I know all their names But they Just forget mine And I've sang for them before And they'll open up their door If I'm more like this, Like a Taylor Swift, With a throwback twist It'd be perfect But you need a hit And God I hated it And I searched for what they were looking for Until I was just Looking for myself So finally I'm gonna be Good to me Oh God! Why's it so hard To just say these These words out loud Cuz honestly I just turned 33 And I've loved enough, Lost enough, I've lifted And let myself down And I'm not who they'd thought I'd be And that's good to me I've looked in the mirror A thousand times I've held on to my skin And I dreamed What it'd be like And I look for validation, Oh, in the darkest of nights With the wine I get And the lipstick red On my cigarette And the warmth of a stranger Who's got a light And I know it's because I told myself That I don't deserve A better life So finally I'm gonna be Good to me Oh God! Why's it so hard to just say these These words out loud Cuz honestly I just turned 33 And I've loved enough, Lost enough, And I've lifted And I've let myself down And I'm not who I thought I'd be Yeah life's still a mystery And that's good to me