Two Steps Back

I know that I'm better off To not think about what I lost Make my old self proud Trying to stay strong But I can't avoid what I see in my sleep Thought you were gone for good I was one step to a better livelihood Now I'm two steps back I misunderstood Didn't think that love could scar me so deep Really thought I was doing well for awhile I was starting to get used to all the miles and miles Came across an old pic And I saw that smile And I I lost my grip I lost my shit Somewhere along the way I failed Yeah, I gave in My heart's a rollercoaster I'd just like some closure Yeah! I try to find the answers But you make it really hard to stay sober And you don't even notice I know that I'm better off To not think about what I lost Make my old self proud Trying to stay strong But I can't avoid what I see in my sleep Thought you were gone for good I was one step to a better livelihood Now I'm two steps back I misunderstood Didn't think that love could scar me so deep Cause you taunt me, taunt me Like you know Now you haunt me, haunt me Like a ghost Are you from the grave? That explains the way You somehow Chase me in my dreams Stay the fuck out my brain Drugs make me insane Make me feel like Cobain Think I need to switch lanes I don't feel real But I'm in my feels still Devil tryna make a deal But I don't have a soul to steal Wish I didn't have a heart to kill All I want to do is heal Yeah, but I'm falling again Yes, I'm stalling my friend As I crawl to my end I can't get up Cause all I do is sin I know that I'm better off To not think about what I lost Make my old self proud Trying to stay strong But I can't avoid what I see in my sleep Thought you were gone for good I was one step to a better livelihood Now I'm two steps back I misunderstood Didn't think that love could scar me so deep