A Girl's Name (Demo)

I remember the scent of autumn And summer's endless days But December beats all of them Though spring's a close second place But these days Something feels so strange The change of the seasons Don't hold the same meaning I've been so fixated On trying to make it I haven't looked up To see the time that it's taken I'm in such a haze I heard someone say the word summer And I thought it was a girl's name And I thought it was a girl's name Time does not last as long as it used to I watch the weeks turn into years When I look back on all we went through I just can't hold back the tears Because these days Something feels so strange Our change in relation's Got me contemplating As the days get warmer It feels like torture It's bringing me back When I need to move forward Oh it's such a shame When I heard someone say the word summer All I thought of was a girl's name These expectations had friends in me They said, "Let's go explore." But sometimes friends turn into enemies And now I'm not excited anymore Because these days Something feels so strange All this confusion Is just an illusion Oh, It's just a prank Pulled on me by my brain I will be fine In just a few months' time But as of today When I hear someone say the word summer All I'm hearing is a girl's name