i tried

I tried to die (the pain won't die) I tried to take my life (and you caught me with a smile) I tried (at the corner of my eye) (You're surprised) Ayy, long road, took a tumble down this black hole Stuck in Sunday League but I'm on levels with Ronaldo A legend in the making, as a kid, I dreamed I'm Al Capone We filled cracks of broken homes with broken dreams and broken bones If walls could scream, ears would bleed, you've gotta keep 'em clean Could say it's dread but I guess it's just what made me me Hug the world with open arms and they treat me like a pest All the scars that I possess, you're gonna do me like this? The charm just napalm, ticking time bomb, got Tourette's (boom) Surrounded by pythons, stick a sword right through their neck (yeah) You're fucking with templars crusading through the ends Forbidden fruit tastes the best with no trespass on the fence (fence) Crawl before you walk but I've been running from this tool Fuckery decisions, yeah, the shit that made me this cool Life got me in a headlock, back and forth like a hockey puck Always wanted muscles, lack of strength made me headstrong Watch 'em crumble 'cause they sour like rhubarb Know my cake and custard inside-out like a tube sock I wish I was Manuka, in my mind I can't do wrong Still waiting for the boy I be, I think it's time to move on Brothers and sisters, pour a tea and try to oolong Running from my struggles back and forth like the Chuckles As morbid as it seems, I'll never wake up from this sleep If hell's meant for sinning, heaven's never been for me I want to go (brrat, brrat) Where I should never go The cut I've got a sickness And I'm dealin' with it It feels like I'm sinking All of the time