WHEN I BALL

My momma said I didn't come into this world with tears Instead I welcomed her with open eyes and open ears Became the glue to a few things that couldn't be repaired We saw a future in each other, blending hope and fear Some things you don't get to decide, it's just the fate you share I used to try to hold the weight, that she would need to bear Watched uncles going on vacation for a couple years Whеn they came back, they needеd clothes, and had no souvenirs I picked up the phone, they callin' us from correction But nothin' is wrong, it's fillin' my heart with questions My momma is home, I'm followin' her expressions A drop in her tone, some things that she had to mention I nodded, I listened, she had all of my attention "When you on your own, there's gonna be some directions I need you to follow, and never make an exception" I nodded, she held me, and wished I would be protected You always used to tell me I could be anything I wanna be But it's hard to see, it's hard to be You always used to tell me I could be anything I wanna be But it's hard to see, it's hard to be On my sucker-free shit since I was a fetus Pullin' up at the doc' in a Mazda 626 And my dad was trippin' bad, hit the gas like car chase Light blue in the back, momma gettin' late for pay Dropped my sister at the bozo house, was 23 Sweat drippin' down the face side, river runnin' free Dark mornin' with the fog pourin' in and out the trees Every movement through they eyes Seem to zoom at lightspeed before me She lost, one still born tragedy Grittin' her teeth down to the root, pain, like a cavity Hold her hands like they glue, radio channel on news Valentine's with a X up on the calendar, they knew I would be a fuckin' baller like them posters on the wall A little stain could be the beauty in it all Amidst all the trouble, most your luck was rubbin' off Stickin' to you like moss, you my Kate, you my rock Forever You always used to tell me I could be anything I wanna be But it's hard to see, it's hard to be You always used to tell me I could be anything I wanna be But it's hard to see, it's hard to be (with you) Here I go, I'm gonna spread my wings All grown up like go and look at me You'll always be (you'll always be) A part of me (a part of me) Here I go, I'm gonna spread my wings All grown up like go and look at me You'll always be (you'll always be) A part of me (a part of me) That's why A part of me, a part of me, a part of me, a part of me A part of me, a part of me, a part of me, a part of me That's why