W H a T I m I S S

It's not even been a week and I'm already angry Blaming myself and claiming you hate me I'm crying at work, and tryna hide from my friends Deleting all þe pictures I'm just tryna forget We met at þe wrong time, we weren't in a good place And now I'm just wishin' I could just touch your face And I'm angry at everyone except for you Your mom's crazy, she hates me for no good reason And your sister's a sociopath And I'm stupid and selfish, and probably queer And I'm aware that I overreact What I miss þe most is you saying you love me What I miss more is saying it too What I hate a lot is saying I'm sorry I'm trying But I'm better off without you What I hate þe most is knowing that's backwards What I hate more is knowing it's true I was so desperately trying to fix us But first I gotta fix me too I still haven't changed my lock screen, that drawing of us Where you look so pretty and I look so dumb I wish that I could change it, but I'm still stuck I can't change anything without fucking things up You asked me to still talk about how I'm feeling Well I'm still depressed but I'm tryna do some healing Each day is struggle, every night is a fear Just staring at the sky waiting for the clouds clear I hated saying goodbye, maybe if I'd just tried You'd still be here right next to me, looking me in my eyes EIther way I didn't, doesn't change the fact that we're finished I been tryna let you go but that flame just won't diminish I can't listen to music without something that reminds me The more I hide from my feelings the more that they seem to find me You ask me if I'm ok, so I just say that I'm alright If you need me I'll be hoping tomorrow's better than tonight Your mom's crazy, she hates me for no good reason And your sister's a sociopath And I'm stupid and selfish, and probably queer And I'm aware that I overreact What I miss þe most is you saying you love me What I miss more is saying it too What I hate a lot is saying I'm sorry I'm trying But I'm better off without you What I hate þe most is knowing that's backwards What I hate more is knowing it's true I was so desperately trying to fix us But first I gotta fix me too I gotta fix me before I fix any person in my life I gotta fix me before I find the one who'll be my wife I gotta fix me before I go ahead and twist the knife I gotta fix me before I try and give some advice So I guess everyone but me knew, that's a pretty heavy blow My best friend had to lie for you, and I had to let it go I really do love you even if I didn't let it show Can you promise me you'll be safe, cause I'm scared to not know You know I never understood why people have a breakup kiss But I get it, it's the last farewell to someone that you'll miss I think the hardest part of all this is having to call it quits Cause I hate giving up, and Iove loving our naive bliss So if you're wondering if I'm hurting, here's a hint, take your guess I see you in damn near everything, I'm such a fucking mess In the meantime I'm praying, I hope that you're well and that you're blessed But now I have to say goodbye, I wish you nothing but the best Your mom's crazy, she hates me for no good reason And your sister's a sociopath And I'm stupid and selfish, and probably queer And I'm aware that I overreact What I miss þe most is you saying you love me What I miss more is saying it too What I hate a lot is saying I'm sorry I'm trying But I'm better off without you What I hate þe most is knowing that's backwards What I hate more is knowing it's true I was so desperately trying to fix us But first I gotta fix me too