Growing Pains

I've let you take me for granted Digging knives in my back While the blindfold that you placed Upon my eyes stayed strapped You put me in this rut Closed my casket shut And my ignorance to all of it Led me to self destruct Why can't we all be safe From all of those just here to take? While I've said my piece It never gives me peace Because I relive every moment of those days Always Why can't I cope with anything Without damaging myself? Denying almost all advice And don't think twice 'Cause there's something in the water And I fear I'm sinking in My previous self is haunting me within Always Well, you've painted all my vibrance with your grey And you dropped me like a rose left to decay I back down Out of fear and pure intimidation I give in When you say you need your second chances Why can't I cope with anything Without damaging myself? Denying almost all advice And don't think twice 'Cause there's something in the water And I fear I'm sinking in My previous self is haunting me within Always I can't stand and fight Even though I've tried But my heart won't beat in silence A day will come when I'll be numb to your Violence Moments tick tock by the hour Potential is fading from this flower Foreseen futures start to tumble Why must I remain so humble? The worst part of all of this Is the coldhearted fact that You're so consumed in your own selfish desires That confronting you would be nothing but Meaningless And karma's not enough to clean this bed At the thought of you I blame myself again Why can't I cope with anything Without damaging myself? Denying almost all advice And don't think twice 'Cause there's something in the water And I fear I'm sinking in My previous self is haunting me within Always