Dim, Dark, Depleting

No, you're not crazy Nick! You're creative! You're so creative! Shut the fuck up! I am quickly realizing All the problems that I'm facing All exist inside this hatred For myself, my thoughts are racing Is there anybody out there Feeling dim, dark and depleting? What is safe? 'Cause all I fear is near And death I'll soon be greeting I truly wish the flickering would stop And I could catch my breath But this film's left on repeat again Somehow you soon forget You've damn near downed your second bottle Drunken words in full effect These sober thoughts have always lived here Driving by until they wreck I'm fucking numb, yeah You don't know a thing about The terror that I breathe into my lungs And I don't know a thing about myself Other than what is soon to come I'm fucking numb I'm fucking numb I'm fucking numb I'm fucking numb, yeah I think the sky is falling But it's my imagination Overcasting on and off again To form a new foundation Hopefully, I reconstruct myself It might take quite a while Obsolete upon comparison These scars all stretch for miles I'll never find the person I was then He's buried deep below Subterranean inhabitant I hope he likes the snow Did the soul inside his body Ever find his way back home? Am I talking in third person? Yeah, I guess we'll never know I'm fucking numb, yeah You don't know a thing about The terror that I breathe into my lungs And I don't know a thing about myself Other than what is soon to come