Dying to Watch

I'll find my mind I hope I've become who I'll be when I die Spinning along with the ceiling I'll lie one last time It's so much easier to live once you believe That you weren't always the hero in this lifestream I'll find my mind, my sanity unwinds All in time, I'll find my mind My mouth is dry My skin, it burns My eyes are closed, I don't wanna learn Wide awake in an ever-changing dream Getting lost on a path that I can't even see What once was tethered begins to fray As the voice in my head slowly shows its face My reunion I bet you're dying to watch My reunion I bet you're dying to watch Fragments of my life I have all but forgot I'll find my mind Will I become who I'll meet when I die? Spinning along Spinning along with the ceiling I'll lie one last time I'll find my mind, my sanity unwinds All in time, I'll find my mind All in time, I'll find my mind All in time, my sanity unwinds The crater where we gather, the mother is here The impact sets fire to the atmosphere Oh, as I collect pieces of my past Holding together like broken glass My hope is gone, it was never enough for what's descending from above Dark matter Become one with the calamity from the sky Shall I? Shall I give you despair? I got lost on the way to the end Or was it the beginning? I just don't understand If I walk the path where the illusion leads, is it reality or just another dream? I can tell by now that I'd already be dead if not for this persona that I made up In my head, in my heart, in my lungs when I breathe I'm fighting to survive in someone else's memory