These Are the Days

These are the days These are the only days This is the only, only But these are the days that feel like those other days Each moment is open, open These are the days I used to see in dreams These are the days I told me I would receive These are the days I used to believe I was trying to show me I could'vе used these days Whеn the days were those days When the days used to pass so slowly And when they have gone I will remember these days as the days when I had a focus That I do not feel in the moment Only the moment I know only the moment the whole sky is broken it opens upon me These are the days These are the only days So why can't I feel them hold me? Why must I sit in the wake of the days Watching them pass like they are not golden These are the golden moments But these are the days that I turn my back on These are the days I let go of Looking for days That used to be days Or days still to come Nothing was broken But I made it break 'Cause I couldn't wait for the days to be filled with emotion I couldn't rest I wanted obsession adrenaline, mess I wanted devotion But I didn't know Why I was so pressed by distraction Why I was so desperate to let it all go Let it all grow from the moment Take it apart just to know it can never be broken Make it an art walk-in away from the good ones When I should've listened but what's hidden Is only revealed when you're looking for patterns These are the days when I regained my balance For now I am sat without love or compassion Defeating myself because I made it happen But no more comparisons No shade no shame no vanishing flames at the edge of the frame No practising only the main it's all spilling out of my veins All these mannequins turned when I came looked away how embarrassing Stop shouting your name in my ears I'm not panicking I am right here I am right here I am managing These are the days that the other days span Don't bother me don't understand Don't follow me into the sand Don't wallow in bed until air becomes solid You were all presence And I was all plans But these are the days When I felt the days Rise in my body And I took them in hand These are the days When I feel the days Rise in my body And I take them in hand