Doubt

Since I was little boy I always wanted to be seen Ain't neva seen no flooded crowds But more people than all my fingers Always was filled up with doubt From family neva believing Any o my bilities I had to build myself esteem up From the ground I found uh struggle Body image, fucked my brain up Had to see it everyday My ex thang getting sick of may Tell me I'm uh burden, and she feel Like she be trapped with may Everyday be getting worse tell me That she can't stand my face Why has she been distancing, and Texting me back hella late My friend say that she be cheating, I Tell them that they full of shit I dont wanna give no doubt, my Mama say I'm full of it So I sit back and shut my mouth Close my eyes to the obvious Plz dont question my anxiety now Cuz I had it up to there Took awhile to smile And if I got uh little fear, try to Simmer me down I dont wanna point no fingers, hard To trust inna vowel Cuz I feel different I can't trust nobody Anymore Not my family, my friends, that Stupid bitch fucked up my dome And yes I got uh fuckin problem Yes I'm angry at the world And I ain't gonna start no doubtin To myself I've fuckin grown From the sands Of the pitiful Martians Red rocks on the street Whole neighborhood Watching Howned down on da son's Who had trouble To spark it Blades swung out the flame Prise visit from Fatha Had me acting up Dealt with trauma on the daily Packed uh heavy hand If I came home with uh grade c Felt that something's wrong I can't tell no one what I been Thru cuz adults would shrug it off And say I needa tell the truth Lawd Doubted on myself because that's all I Ever knew I grew up with no sense of idols, cuz They act like they ain't knew About any of all my struggles, that They know they put me through And all the years of fuckin pain with No sympathy over buse Since I was little boy I always wanted to be seen Ain't neva seen no flooded crowds But more people than all my fingers Always was filled up with doubt From family neva believing Any o my bilities I had to build myself esteem up From the ground I found uh struggle Body image, fucked my brain up Had to see it everyday My ex thang getting sick of may Tell me I'm uh burden, and she feel Like she be trapped with may Everyday be getting worse tell me That she can't stand my face Why has she been distancing, and Texting me back hella late My friend say that she be cheating, I Tell them that they full of shit I dont wanna give no doubt, my Mama say I'm full of it So I sit back and shut my mouth Close my eyes to the obvious