Last Stand

They say, "never ever gonna 'mount to anything in this life" But I've got some pride I'm not swallowing, call on it tonight And they may be right, dropped right outta my high school Got a gun to my head every night Real talk, with a trigger that I might pull Nobody knows it, it's over for me I'm over the edge, an I'm blowing up inside Cause I'm not who I'm supposed to be Nobody's chosen me Too sick for the heavens and yet I've neglected the demons in my head, I'm directed like I'm Never gonna get another chance at joy with somebody else 'Cause I'm too vindictive, addicted to pain And yo, it might've helped If I hadn't read into this so stupidly It could be you and me in the future, fucking in love, and mutually But it's never gonna be that way, life is looking down now Gotta get my fam outta debt, Get my hands on a check With a mic, I'm looking right out at the crowd In my dreams, if you really wanna know what I mean That's too bad, 'cause I just don't trust Anyone anymore, you're an enemy scene This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean 'Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine I can't take it I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy So save all your goodbyes I'm gonna give it to you one last time So if you hear me Just throw your fists up You're gonna miss me When I'm gone and I give up Day one I'ma take it slow Happiness, I can't make it show 'Cause I've been forgotten, there's no fixing a forsaken home And the bread, I'ma make my dough Whatever means, I don't hustle crack But whatever it takes, I'ma make my cake, and I might just bust a rap For the green, I see no point To be doing it free, my joints Are the hottest products up on the market, rocking, bringin' noise But I can't do that, cause I do rap for the fans when I need to vent And you'd better believe me This ain't easy I cannot breathe and bet That if I collect a check, for the words in my notepad I'm giving it all away to my family, and it's so sad That it really had to come to this but I'm a fuck up, and you love it so And the pain that I gain from the life That I'm living isn't gonna get covered, no I just can't keep up with my music life or my challenges Between being me and pleasing you, I can't balance it An' this may be the last album if you don't stop sleeping and playing me 'Cause you are never gonna hear another Motherfucker drop this shit like David G This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean 'Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine I can't take it I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy So save all your goodbyes I'm gonna give it to you one last time So if you hear me Just throw your fists up You're gonna miss me When I'm gone and I give up You're gonna miss me You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (gone, gone, gone, gone) You're gonna miss me You're gonna miss me when I'm gone (gone, gone, gone, gone) You're gonna miss me (miss me, miss me, miss me) This is my last stand, tell me what you really mean 'Cause after this record I'm headed for the guillotine I can't take it I've made myself to be someone that I'm not and it's crazy So save all your goodbyes I'm gonna give it to you one last time So if you hear me Just throw your fists up You're gonna miss me When I'm gone and I give up