Made It Past October

Dried eyes and I'm trynna stay sober The more that I, the more I get older Heart of fire when you want it to be over Imagine texting your friend and the mother respond I'm running to the bathroom, I just need a minute Put a smile on, no I'm next to go Want nobody else to feel the way I'm feelin' I wanna go (ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah) I, God I know I'm too early but I missed my friends Dried eyes, and I'm trynna stay sober More that I, the more I get older Heart of fire when you want it to be over (Can't erase my friends) I wish I had called But where should I start Could I have done something different? I don't know better You and I were trynna stay sober You tried and I made it past October I feel all foggy cause I don't know if I should get up It's so crazy to you, it's so normal to me I'm feelin' numb now I {?} don't feel nothin' I'm always feelin' shitty but my stories not finished I wanna go (ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah) I, God I know I'm too early but I missed my friends Dried eyes and I'm trynna stay sober More that I, the more I get older Heart of fire when you want it to be over (Yeah I miss my friends) I wish I had called But where should I start? Could I have done something different? I don't know better You and I were trynna stay sober You tried and I made it past October Truth and I, make a lie, tell everybody that You're taking off three days, the thing about suicide Cause I I'm not ready to die Truth and I make a lie, tell everybody that You're taking off three days, the thing about suicide Cause I I'm not ready to die