E1 1888

Damn it’s late

And I’m sat here alone

Waiting for the dawn to break

Just my misery for company

I should go home

The voices in my head are twisting my soul

Cause I’m cold, numb and hurt

As I’m stalking your window

With no glimmer of hope, but a sense of closure

I don’t deserve this

I see a man with no shadow

Walk up to your door

And my heart stops dead

I know its over, I stare at the floor

A shudder of fear, straight to my core

Why do I do this?

Why do I torture myself?

And Fall into this trap, this hole

This place where I, lose all self control

You torment my soul

The rains drips down from my temple

Extinguishes my last cigarette

My last action spoke volumes to you girl

But No regret

Some regret

Full of regret

It’s Too late for regret

Take my pride

Take my sense of worth

Take everything that makes me think I’m me

Crush it, then tear it apart with intent

But What have I done?

I start to crack, Brittle in defeat

Now I lack all self respect, I long to self delete

Your dismissal of me, did not end well

As The guilt in my head begins to grow and swell

This is wrong and I know it but I can’t help myself, this living hell

The hatred I now have for you, and your condescending spell

Enough!

You’re sat alone

Your lifeless eyes staring into the void

Wondering how you died?

And the man with no shadow takes notes at the scene

And considers for a moment if dead girls dream?

It’s obscene

I’ll take my leave of you now

Before I’m spotted fleeing this place

I’ll take refuge with you my love and your warm embrace

What’s your name? They call me Jack

I promise to love you, ’til death and back

I wonder, how long, til they find me?