Dying To Be You

If ignorance is bliss Then maybe I'm the shit Cause that's what people tell me When I'm with my friends But when I'm all alone And the curtains close I look in the mirror And I'm self loathing How I wear my fears like filthy clothing Then I ask myself What I don't want to know Have I been killing myself Dying to be you Holding my breathe Until my face turns blue I got blisters on my fingers And a callus on my heart Have I been killing myself Dying to be you Dying to be you You don't want to know What's been going through my head Swimming pools Of existential dread Look around there's No life guard on deck, again If depression was a job I'd be working the night shift Can someone tell my why Every day is a crisis Nothing ever helps (fuck) Why am I like this Have I been killing myself Dying to be you Holding my breathe Until my face turns blue I got blisters on my fingers And a callus on my heart Have I been killing myself Dying to be you Dying to be you Dying to be you Mirror mirror on the wall Whose the saddest of them all Are you happy? (YEAHHH) But are you sure? (Well) Have I been killing myself Dying to be you Holding my breathe Until my face turns blue I got blisters on my fingers And a callus on my heart Have I been killing myself Dying to be you Dying to be you Dying to be you