The Last Thing I Saw

The last thing I saw Before I went under Was a hoofprint in the pool liner He said a horse fell in last spring Y'all really should have seen it Such a large, thrashing thing Honestly, it was startling But this is how it's always felt Like I'm only arriving Where you've already been And even now I feel it You've shown me your power By where you conceal it The last series we sat through Featured this 8-foot, papier-mâché Mayan pyramid He said "test everything And hold fast to the good" So we got engaged that winter Right there at the end of the world But this is how it's always worked You give us understanding When we lean on yours And even now, I feel it Your mercies keep following me And time keeps revealing it You must have been tumbling In the carpet of my childhood When I played Cause even when I felt your absence Your impression remained You preoccupied my adolescence like An open-carry on the hip Of the woman I knew I'd marry Her name was fear and trembling But this is how it's always felt Like I'm only arriving Where you've already been And even now I feel it You've shown me your power By where you conceal it But then college hit And the New Atheists Rode their bus campaigns On public-speaking streaks And I was cowering under Comments about The Amalekites and God's providence Then Hitch will get his diagnosis And someone's daughter somewhere gets The same But the former will never fathom why Grieving fathers give you praise Cos this is how it's always been You're waiting beside Hospital beds In chambers of my heart That life hasn't broken yet But even now I feel it You've shown me your power No grave can seal in And this is how it's always felt Like I'm only arriving Where you've already been And even now I feel it You've shown me your power By where you conceal it