Ice Cream (So Close)

Self hate feeling heavier than lead Everyday miracles Happen that I neglect Suicidal thoughts Popping up inside my head Had to train my brain To think of other things instead Loving life, finding friends Close to overdose Close to giving up A closed door that would Never open up Thinking I was boarded shut Wasn't worth being loved But was worth beating up These thoughts grew feet Now there Running around in my head Telling me that I'm better off leaving them dead I could wallow in my weakest Pr rise to defeat this Instead of repeat this Self doubt trying double down on me Every weekend But I found love for my life And a reason for breathing Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost Reminds me We are always so close Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost Reminds me We are always so close I want to die eating ice cream I want to die filled with love I want to live with the belief That all this means something Deep down I know It does I want to live feeling grateful I want to live having fun In a place with people who know me Reminiscing on what was I want to die eating ice cream I wanna die by a lake I don't wanna live forever Maybe just 108 I accept that we're all gonna die Somewhere Somehow In someway But with that said I don't wanna die today I don't want to die today I don't want to die today I don't want to die today I don't want to die today Somewhere somehow some way We all go Somewhere somehow some way We go Somewhere somehow some way We all go Somewhere somehow some way We go Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost Reminds me We are always so close Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost Reminds me We are always so close I want to die eating ice cream I want to die filled with love I want to live with the belief That all this means something Deep down I know It does I want to live feeling grateful I want to live having fun In a place with people who know me Reminiscing on what was I want to die eating ice cream I wanna die by a lake I don't wanna live forever Maybe just 108 I accept that we're all gonna die Somewhere Somehow In someway But with that said I don't wanna die today I don't want to die today I don't want to die today I don't want to die today I don't want to die today Somewhere somehow some way We all go Somewhere somehow some way We go Somewhere somehow some way We all go Somewhere somehow some way We go Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost Reminds me We are always so close Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost Reminds me We are always so close