Long Way From Boston

This is a journey inside of Jpaulished's brain From the outside it seems like things are working correctly But the closer we look From the inside It seems he is in need of maintenance I am not okay Man I lost it Awesome I'm a long way from the Boston Commons Moved down south Where the heat exhausting Someone tell me to breath How the fuck can I magician With no tricks up my sleeve? I need a girl for every day of the week Ortega's on a Wednesday Huh But really I don't how much more than I can take I'm going insane I say I want hos But all hos are the same I think I really want a woman to date That would hold me when I'm having a day When I'm with her pain vanish away How the fuck are struggling? Online they would faint If they met you in public Deep down you ain't loving it You just smile and cover it up Treated like a piece of meat At least the finest of cuts But when the screen turns off You know the silence is nuts I am not okay Man I lost it I am not okay Man I lost it Awesome I'm a long way from the Boston Commons Moved down south Where the heat exhausting And I'm a long way from Boston The beast it'll be one to keep you from it I put my feet on the edge And release and plummet Wake up in a cold sweat Bed and sheets is covered Must be one of my nine lives I always die when I close my eyes Or find a girl That I always wanted to be mine Reality I'm alone And no one by my side I spend my time stressing While I'm losing time Making music What a loser I am I mean I even moved across the country Just to try I probably should have studied Poly-Sci This life is killing me I'll probably die With notes open Beats playing that I found online Looping back til my laptop dies A scary scene But the backdrop vibes Empire Strikes Back is in my top five But who the hell is this jpaulished guy? I am not okay Man I I am not okay Man I lost it Awesome I'm a long way from the Boston Commons Moved down south Where the heat exhausting And I'm a long way from Boston