The Story

I try to be better, look ahead

I'm dead in the depth of my reflection

How can I see through the center?

I'm a fool to think that I could figure it out

These walls are caving in

But I won't notice till the cracks begin

To break into my spine

And take the shape of every line

Every line

Every line

Shape my mind

If I could be a better version of me

I'd step into a mirror and come back clean

If I could turn the deadfall into green

I'd be the hero of the story

But I turn into a villain

When I hurt myself again

And I cannot seem to find the strength

To wield that pen

And change myself enough

To break the mold that I am in

I wanna be changing

It's a shell, a shield

A cycle that I can't break

Tell myself that I can

A lie

I try a repeated phrase in my brain

These walls are caving in

And I won't notice till the cracks begin

To break into my spine

And take the shape of every—

If I could be a better version of me

I'd step into a mirror and come back clean

If I could turn the deadfall into green

I'd be the hero of the story

But I turn into a villain

When I hurt myself again

And I cannot seem to find the strength

To wield that pen

I wanna be the hero

Please

I wanna be the hero

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I know that I'm clean

I'd be the hero of the story

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

I'd be the hero of the story

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

I'd be the hero of the story

Don't wanna look in the mirror till I can be

Don't wanna look in the—

But I turn into a villain