#7-Drunk text sent

Here's to anyone that doesn't understand me... i had to let go of myself, so you might even notice me, look a little like i procrastinate but im fully focused, rock n chosen broken selfish n hopless for a moment n the worste part is god knows it... Its like which way are we goin, we measure success by material fake paper n im like you gotta be jokin...what happened to the heartbroken poet who rhymes about hard times at his lowest...trys to be funny but right when you laugh he chokes and he blows it... Tryin to wait till your damn near 30 years old now your past finally gettin better but its most likely that your gonna stay irrelevant... Unless by some miracle you can convince these people that an angels been heaven sent with a set of crimson purple single eye thats controlling the strings attached to the back of the ass of our asshole collamity collapse humanity sorrow struck society forget we're not the first generation to live and die by the gun murdered in poverty but you spend time criticize deny judge and look past addicted and im gonna die one day in addiction fact im fully afflicted wishin askin god is there more to life then this or is this it? I feel like theres something that im missin a reason a bigger mission a more beautiful well contrasted colored picture but ive found its really more like a mixture life lived linear with projection painted this is art without it you might miss it... Love is pain i love your kisses... Snuggle close to me i call you princess, whisper that i love you and you know i mean it, when your gone im frickin sick n fuck im fienen bob and weave n , now im weak and your thinkin you might pack your shit and leave when your all i really had and the one thing in the world that i really need... But you left n im supposed to be calm n just breathe.fuck that bitch theres part of me that wants to see you and your new happy family fuckin bleed but see thats just the psychopath in me not real when i come back to reality i truthfully think about how i must have made you feel especially when i act like its not my fault and its really not that big a deal but for real it kills me inside to know i killed us killin me livin wiliing living life pissed off as a metaphoricphillisophic super villain thats fuckin unstoppable chillin fuckin feelin tilted really not doin well havin trouble dealin with a life thats only been painfull cry my surrows buried now im all up in my feelings heart no longer buried broken tattooed on my face so if u look u dont look back because if you left i swear to god aint got much left this love and loss is gonna leave me dead on the very last day i took a breath i hope you spread my ashes on the beach n light the fire move your feet to good food and a slappin beat live young and free if i never get to see 50 or 100 tell my kids i might be weird but a muh fucka always loved em...n they know i was always there when they need advice or just to hug em..i know that im not perfect but fuck... Sent