Forward or Crazy

I haven't felt this lonely for a while now I need to break this routine, but I don't know how I also don't know where my motivation went But it surely makes a handy argument I wrecked my brains for a good six months The only thing I came up is this f*cking song It's okay for now, but it will not last It can come live with me in the f*cking past I really need to get it together This isn't gonna work out forever The only way from f*cked up or lazy Is either going forward or crazy I tried to run from problems, they kept showing up The only friend I have is the coffee mug He's the silent type, doesn't talk that much But he listens well and he doesn't judge I feel okay though, but the Vicodin Doesn't justify the state I'm in My bloodshot eyes couldn't be more red And I talk to things that are inanimate I really need to get it together This isn't gonna work out forever The only way from f*cked up or lazy Is either going forward or crazy Forward or crazy I can't go on like this I am f*cked and useless I can't go on like this I am f*cked and useless It's 3 a.m. and I'm wide awake With a cigarette and a head that aches I wonder why I don't go to bed Instead of pondering over things I said 25 and counting Can't bring myself to do anything And the worst part is, is that I'm aware I'm responsible for my own despair I really need to get it together This isn't gonna work out forever The only way from f*cked up or lazy Is either going forward or crazy Forward or crazy Forward or crazy Forward or crazy Forward or crazy