Recluse

I'm holding on To the only fleeting Part of me That keeps me in myself I'm falling Deeper into that which has A grip on my insides And all that is without Now for the vanishing act, oh my God The shadows, the walls, have always had my back I scratch my skin til I bleed, drown in my river of need Caught in the noose of self reduction Running my body to bone, the reaper of what I sow Disgusting existence All eyes behold, lend me your glare Behold the burden I bear Please, let me breathe The silence is my friend now Please, let me be No one needs to know what I feel Please, can't you see? You're only wasting your time Please, let me rot in my own skin If my mind is the ocean, your words are the undertow Wrapped around my ankles, and they're pulling me below So when I've reached the bottom, healing water will fill my lungs Take a look back through the water, and watch what I become