Never stopping to take in whats around me

Nothing excites me anymore, everything feels like a waste of time

Chasing the bottom of the bottle once again

Maybe that's where all my problems began

I have this crippling fear that I am going to die alone, no one knows how I feel

You're not there, just an empty void where you once existed

I have this fear but then I reject the people that I have in my God damn life

Everything that's destructive in my life is self inflicted, or maybe it was you

Living life from day to day. I've lost my will to change anything

There is no peace to be found, stuck with this emotional dependence

No self respect

No fucking self control

I'm just an emotional wreck

If I were you I'd gamble against me too

Because it's my fault that I'm scared to not succeed

No one knows how I feel. You're not there, just an empty void where you once existed

So It seems not trying is the better option

It's just me and the drink tonight