Hot In February (Freestyle)

Yo, I just want a life full of meaning

I just want a life with my **** round the Round Table eating

I just want a life where I can see if a **** approach me

I don't think that it's beef, don't wanna see another brother as demon

I know you feel the same but we can't help but to fight

It's within our breeding

When Martin Luther spoke of his dream, we should've believed him

But I am far from an angel so who am I to be preaching?

I'm from a place where it's cold outside

And if it's hot in February, you don't go that side

Where man'll stare in your face as if he knows that guy

Bullets can fly if a **** doesn't know that guy

I was constantly told to go home but I was born here

Lost a couple of friends to the road, ****, I mourned here

Imagine talking to your best friend one night

Not knowing your laughing and joking just for one last time

Listen, I get a call the next day and on the other line

This brother's saying another brother's taken my brother's life

Of course, I don't believe him, it's gossip, this brother's lying

I put down the phone and I call my brother, there's no reply

I'm ringing everybody and everybody saying the same thing

No one knows, no one knows

The story's neverending, it's like so untold

I'm praying my brother's alive and he's on the road

At this point my heart is panicking

I'm adamant that this isn't happening

I'm angry and it's passionate

Smashing my hand on the dashboard

Can't understand, this isn't accurate

Managing my emotions, he's alive and I'm not having it

Principle positivity is challenging

Not knowing, this is damaging, sitting here frozen like a mannequin

Man, a man just has to be alive, this has to be a lie

Truth is my fantasy is vanishing

The final call comes through, I can't believe what I'm hearing is the truth

No way, this isn't true

I dropped the phone on the floor, can't believe that they did this to you

My heart explodes and I start crying at the news

My brain is on fire, I'm confused

I've never felt this pain in my life, suffocating at the news

Some pain, you don't choose it, you know it's true what they say

You don't know what you have until you lose it

That's why I only keep a few friends close

A few good many to go to let the good ones go

I got a couple nine to five friends, the hood ones told

I used to have bad friends, I had to let them go

Come on time, man, and a watch man  TV show

You work hard for your P's, they never see that though

But man wanna hate and complain

They don't wanna see you grow, they wanna see you fold

It's a shame I showed you love, you never showed the love back

Taking my energy, not having that **** ponder

You would never have friended me, enemy on the low

You fucking frenemy, I should've seen the snake-boy tendencies

On my level, ****, you will never be

Never call me my dog, me and you are two different pedigrees

Hennessy got me feeling emotional

Feeling the most anger, I've got to leave it and go

Please leave me alone

Me emotional baggage is eating my soul

I need it to go, I keep feeding and feeding

And why am I feeding this hole

I keep seeing the demon, that's why it's so easy to blow

So I breathe 'cause I see that life isn't easy at all

I am never perfect, that's why I'm never judged, man

I just gotta do it, call me Jumpman

Ask for my opinion, I will be upfront and not family

I keep my opinion to myself, bad man

What's life without love, that's not a life worth living

Me, I don't want that life, ****, listen

I just wanna help my friends be rich so we can all be pimping

I just want my family proud of a brudda

Just wanna work hard then make that chedda

Is it so bad that I just want a better life?

No, it ain't bad that I just want a better life, trust me