When I was eleven I idolized you

You seemed like you knew everything in a town where everybody knew nothing

I wanted to grow up exactly like you

You made me a mixtape that felt like a blueprint for who I was becoming

As we grew up I saw you change

A sickness ate away at you 'til just a shell and the sickness remained

And I don't know you anymore

All I have is your memory and all the music you played me, so

I drive around and listen to the tape you gave me

And remember who you used to be

You're gone forever so I spend time with a memory

Just your ghost and the music and me

When I was finding who I am you helped to point me

To a future you're not here to see

I try to picture us the way I thought we would be

Just your ghost and the music and me

I went to get groceries and thought about you

A song from our childhood came on and I had to hold myself back from crying

How does it feel to treat me like you do

I hate how your absence has taken all our favorite songs and twisted their meaning

As I grow up I see the truth

You always had two sides to you but I only saw one in my youth

And I'm not angry anymore

I'm happy for the time we had and all the music you played me, so

I drive around and listen to the tape you gave me

And remember who you used to be

You're gone forever so I spend time with a memory

Just your ghost and the music and me

When I was finding who I am you helped to point me

To a future you're not here to see

I try to picture us the way I thought we would be

Just your ghost and the music and me

I wish you were you still

I wish I could see you again

I wish I could help you

I wish I could ease all your pain

I wish you could change

I drive around and listen to the tape you gave me

And remember who you used to be

You're gone forever so I spend time with a memory

Just your ghost and the music and me

When I was finding who I am you helped to point me

To a future you're not here to see

I try to picture us the way I thought we would be

Just your ghost and the music and me