Ballad of an Outlaw

Sittin' here, just drinkin' this beer Tryna cowboy up and hold back these tears Thinkin' 'bout how I could've been a better man Nine-to-five, just bustin' my back Bills sky high, boy, I can't catch no slack Old lady talkin' 'bout she done with me No matter what I've done, no matter what I've said I never tucked my tail, I never ran and fled Prideful scars, nights in jail, yeah I kept on goin' even though I felt dead I numb the pain with the alcohol Drunk when Daddy died, so I missed the call I prayed to God to help me understand Tears pourin' down my face, tryna be a better man You never know your strength 'til you meet the struggle Got the monkey on your back, gettin' drunk with the devil I was a rebel without a cause Sold drugs, cursed Mama, broke laws and hearts I'll tell ya I kept my head high, middle finger higher Walked the yellow line behind walls of barbed wire This is the ballad of an outlaw And all these scars got stories for all of y'all I'll tell ya Poppin' pills to keep the animal inside the wall, ten toes tall Devil on my back, but I can't get him off, can't get him off Friends turn to enemies, I need a drink So I hit the bar to puff a cigarette and think All the things that I should've changed but couldn't Tried to walk a straight path, but I was blind, the road was crooked Dancin' with my demons, yeah, my freedom, it was taken Left my daughter with her mama who I made a single woman Picked up a pen, wrote down what I was feelin' Then I sang it off the paper, whole world started singin' Nobody's perfect, everybody's got a demon Tried to play this game, but every single time I was beaten I found a reason for leavin', I'm schemin' It's my turn, I got the cards, and I'm dealin' Rebel 'til I die, but man, I'm tired of bleedin' Everybody's got a story, this is mine that I'm singin' You never know your strength 'til you meet the struggle Got the monkey on your back, gettin' drunk with the devil I was a rebel without a cause Sold drugs, cursed Mama, broke laws and hearts I'll tell ya I kept my head high, middle finger higher Walked the yellow line behind walls of barbed wire This is the ballad of an outlaw And all these scars got stories for all of y'all I'll tell ya