Misery

My regrets, same old story Paid my dues, paid my glory They tell me, "Hang on, please, don't you worry" My mind wanders then my thoughts go blurry Am I paranoid or a different breed? Where did I go wrong, there is no retreat I been on the haunt lately for a happy me But this negativity I can't escape, you see? I need a change quick, if I don't, I'm concerned These people love me 'cause I put into words What most can't say, so I'm here to disperse They depending on me, but I'm stuck in a curse Numbers go up, then my health goes down Will I blow up, it don't matter right now Gotta find my peace, better rise to my feet If I don't do that, I'ma click-clack-blow Let's face the facts, I just wanna be great I wanna be real, but I'm feeling so fake I love my job, but the price you pay Is a burden so deep that most can't take So I paint my face and I hide my mistakes My anxiety's high so I lay wide awake Got my headphones in think I need my fix I wanna give in, but I will not quit, nah Where do I go when I'm feeling so damn alone? I don't know why I am so cold What has gotten in to me? Can't escape this misery, can't escape this misery Where do I go when I'm feeling so damn alone? I don't know why I am so cold What has gotten in to me? Can't escape this misery, can't escape this misery Gotta leave a legacy when I grow up I'm hoping they remember me when I kick dust I'm trapped in a box, still searching 'cause I'm lost My emotions run dry so numb, won't stop A lot has changed in a year, I admit it The life I use to live, that is so forbidden Now I make a little money as I plot these written's If the song don't pop, then the fans go missing It's lights, camera, action You don't see the backstage Yelling, "Ceasefire" every time I have a bad day Putting on a show like I'm starring in a matinee Hate to be in crowds, kinda funny how I want game I am overanalyzing every situation And then I start debating if I'm gonna be the greatest Where do I go when I'm feeling so damn alone? I don't know why I am so cold What has gotten in to me? Can't escape this misery, can't escape this misery Another day exhausted, yeah, my soul is tired I question who I am, and if I should keep fighting I'm running out of options, there is no redemption No more excuses, but I'm lacking of some inspiration Where do I go when I'm feeling so damn alone? I don't know why I am so cold What has gotten into me? Can't escape this misery, can't escape this misery Where do I go when I'm feeling so damn alone? I don't know why I am so cold What has gotten in to me? Can't escape this misery, I can't escape this misery