Thoughts

They're just thoughts Yeah Why I'm trapped in my thoughts, let me set 'em in the open There's some tug of wars going on And I ain't coping I'm tryna stay down but I'm floating Shit got me spinning I ain't liking the motion Try to hold on, losing grip, gonna open The airs getting thick and I'm over the choking Airs with the tick got me roaming Heirs gone stick, we ain't liking the lonesome I'm having raw thoughts I'm a kid again, stepdad, more talk with his fist again I said, you come for my mum then you pissing Red, no chance, I was young, we ain't finished yet See the man I become Eat your dinner bread, you created this cunt that is in my head Now, try front on me once Push this in your head, you can't run, you know that it's in my legs Yeah, remember the chase, huh, 9 years lil Menace got his pace up 'Bout time that you split like a face Cut, '98 ain't no better, what gon' face us? My brothers born and it's a blessing, mum changed her partners And we gained some stressing I replay the carnage, It's a torture session That has fucked my head, so don't you talk on lessons Wish it changed but aggression stepped in, lives got threatened And my mum got burnt and my brother Got a cheffing, at least he stepped in Word to my brethren, I swear to the old gods, brother didn't question I swear he a soldier, didn't stutter when he pressed him I swear, for the whole squad He holds our protection, It's time she left him, yeah Just thoughts in my head but forced me some anger It's more in December, we fall for a member I'm calling it cancer, used to pray to the lord for an answer It turned our days all dark like a panther I had to leave this home, I can't stand it Standing alone like the boys going Phantom, I'm leaving a home for a dead man But I guess this is life, I suppose (But I guess this is life, I suppose) All dry, nothing ripe, nothing rose (All dry, nothing ripe, nothing rose) I'll soon take flight when I'm grown (I'll soon take flight when I'm grown) From the fear and the dark in my home Home is where the heart is, I'm a daddy so I never wanna start shit Baby mama, never seen you as a target And I'm sorry that I never tried my hardest It's family first but my fans want an artist I'll die for my chases and carters I'll live for my babies 'cause I am your father I'll always catch you, sons, 'cause dad is your harness We was just children so how could you Harm us, I'm all dazed, no days, only darkness Guess this the way, in a way I am heartless but I ain't a waste, I ain't placed as a carcass Thoughts in my head but the thoughts I won't Part with, I left home and it gave me a pardon Seen cheap change and felt like a bargain I took leaps, now I'm moving the margins Yeah, remember the change up, 'bout time lil Menace got his face up Get staunch lil Menace, get your weight up You can do it don't you smile for no fake cunt See, what goes around will always come Around, see I'm done with frowns, I can not pass 'em down They say my seed is bound, I will not taint the ground They just thoughts but it seems they are making sound But I guess this is life, I suppose (But I guess this is life, I suppose) All dry, nothing ripe, nothing rose (All dry, nothing ripe, nothing rose) I'll soon take flight when I'm grown (I'll soon take flight when I'm grown) From the fear and the dark in my home