Bruises

You weren't supposed to leave me You were weak But you were breathing I was nineteen I was terrified I saw the fear in mommas eyes I thought you were invincible I hated God he stole from me To me, he's just a criminal I hate to be so cynical That's just not how you raised me But Some things are unforgivable It almost drove me crazy I just wanna make you proud I just wanna make you proud Remember that time when you broke out Of the hospital just to make it to my graduation All of our friends and family were faded You showed up in a gown Draggin' your oxygen tank on the ground I heard you say "son" I turned around To your smile And your arms out And when I ran out that door I kept on running till I couldn't run anymore Til I was short of breath and sore And I fell to the floor Who do you want me to be What do you want me to do You never wanted me to be Anything other than me Did you Who do you want me to be What do you want me to do You never wanted anything other than true Did you It feels so good to say out loud But I could never seem to get it out You were right about it all All those friends you said Were never my friends Every single one is gone I just wanna be right When I know that I'm wrong I used to say I was trying my hardest I knew that I wasn't You knew I was lying But I really mean it this time I promise I'm doing it right I really mean it this time I promise I'm doing it right You weren't supposed to leave me You were weak But you were breathing I was nineteen I was terrified I saw the fear in mommas eyes I thought you were invincible I hated God he stole from me To me, he's just a criminal