Lullaby

So you told me this is over now I knew it was coming but I did not think It would be this soon So I asked myself what did I wrong Or what could I've made To change your mind even that I know it's no choice Starting to fall into the abyss ... Hey I need you now ... Yes, I Wanted to pretend Even if it's toxic tho And I Need to find an end in this I'm too close to the edge right now I can't trust myself no more So months have passed there was no change I got drunk and ignored the pain A lullaby For an insane mind So I tried to cut off everything but where I look just memories I'm stumbling through the darkness nothing to hold on Still stuck in this deadly abyss I still need you now Yeah you ask why I hate you but what exactly is this hate It is unrejected love and thinking that it's not too late Everyday I say it's not fair and I know it's not in vain But why the fuck am I sitting drunk in this blue room full of pain ... Hey, it's me I just wanted to call and tell you that I can't do this anymore, I'm sorry This has to end right now Good night... ... Yes, I don't need to pretend No more And I Finally found an end in this still to close to the edge right now But I trust myself so I can live I don't need you now I don't need you now