Death Ain't Easy

Look, I'm done living' bout other people's lives, ok Watch this Death ain't easy, life is hard that is the truth I do admit People want what they can't have, they spend their lives pursuing it Wasting time on something or someone that doesn't want you I know the feeling, I'm used it Love is such an illusion, If love is a fucking drug then it must be a strong hallucinogen Scars and all of the bruises you see my body are wounded with Should provide you with proof that there's nothing inside this earth that can stop me from just pursuing this Started losing friends when I became so influential 'Cause I stopped hiding mistake I started seeing change because I chose to love myself instead of being woman crazed The proof is how my loved ones say that I ain't shit and now their friends are bumping me it funny that's how karma likes to play (karma lives are played) You can desecrate my passion but can't defame my character You don't know a fraction of the trauma i endured when I was coming up 'cause luckily Where came from is a silver spoon (silver spoon) You don't have a single clue you never had to sacrifice Or go without 'cause every route you chose to take was predestined and built for you Let's reassess what I feel for you You're a chia pet I'm a real dude But still you think you're Geppetto though And I'm Pinocchio 'cause both of us got strings attached but I'm breaking free 'Cause I've finally revealed the truth Your identity in scholarships, college degree My identity inside the booth My Identity inside every song but your family tree won't accept that news You put me down to make yourself better you're just jealous I'm a free spirit you're Insecure with your every move I'm done (I'm done) I'm done because I love you more than life while just only love yourself Rather hang me out to dry than ever lend a hand to help Every need I ever had you either swept under the rug or tried to hang right on the shelf Yeah, It sucks that that's our life; our relationships dichotomy We at each other's throats fucking constantly like tracheotomy's This pain haunting me You treat me like a toddler while I treat you like a novelty Try so hard resolving things with every single thought I think But every time I talk or speak you treat it like I'm pulling teeth I know, yes I know, loyalty has got an expiration date Let's set the record straight I know that there's a difference between comfort and control And you're so comfortable controlling almost everythin' Insult me with your every move Jesus take the wheel but you let emotions drive you, steering, holding ten and two It's clear your friends mean more to you than fearing what you're sure to lose And when I tell you how I feel you, boil it down and say I'm just a tortured artist Using words to paint a portrait of my torturous views