Death of Me

My whole life I've been waiting Just to feel something I'm just so sick of waiting Then it occurred to me If I feel it that would be the death of me I could kill it, be my own worst enemy I'm getting too close, time is almost up I don't know what I can do to Tie my tongue I feel like I'm obsessin' Unlock my phone I'm waiting for a message I need a sign to tell me to wake up I don't know what I can do to Fill my time with distraction Hit my dab pen to silence the fact that I'm so numb I don't wanna go back to Those nights crying myself to sleep Where was God when I needed him most? Thoughts almost made me overdose Barrel in my mouth ready to go But I can't do it, no I can't do it now If I feel it that would be the death of me I could kill it, be my own worst enemy I'm getting too close, time is almost up I don't know what I can do to Tie my tongue I feel like I'm obsessin' Unlock my phone I'm waiting for a message I need a sign to tell me to wake up I don't know what I can do to